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onkochishin
30 January 2020 @ 10:53 pm
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ROCKSTAR DISORDER

I've made this journal 'friends only' because I don't want random people to read my personal stuff. If you're interested anyway you can add me. Please tell me who you are and why you want to be friends. New friends are always welcome.
 
 
onkochishin
18 June 2012 @ 05:13 pm
The tensions rise in your mind and you think back
To realizing everything that you left behind.
The mask that you wear is just an illusion,
We've picked up our cross, we've found a solution. 
You've lost your flames in the darkest of night.
Your ambitions are falling out of sight.
Selfishness owns you, I hope you can see,
The family you loved is now the enemy.
 
 
I am: home
mood: apatheticapathetic
eargasm: WOE, IS ME - Vengeance
 
 
onkochishin
14 April 2012 @ 01:41 am
It pisses me off that when you confront people with a mistake they made, they get agressive and start to defend themselves. All I did was point out that some comments can hurt. People should think more before they say something. I'm glad I didn't shut up and let them know what they did wrong.

If they really don't give a fuck like they say they do, I wouldn't care if they died today.
 
 
mood: pissed offpissed off
eargasm: Chase & Status - Time
 
 
onkochishin
01 April 2012 @ 03:04 am

My day started crappy. I needed to work an 11-hour shift but as soon as I saw my weight (first thing I do when I wake up) I freaked out. I hated myself so much. I hate myself for the out of control bulimic (I say bulimic because I AM more bulimic than anorexic) pig I am. +0,9 within one day. Unfair. I tried so hard to eat OK and I knew I had eaten a little too much but I never expected to gain so much within a day. Work was nothing special. Some annoyances. With L's help I could eat a little, and just now I was 0,4 lighter. I'm a little calmer now. It just hurt because I didn't feel comfortable at all and Mounir actually asked me if my ass had gotten bigger. It would've stung any day, but it was a little too much on top of feeling so insecure.. I told him about it later. He (said he was) was sorry, but yeah. The truth is the truth and the truth is also that his words will haunt me. Cycling back and at home I had a little breakdown. Everything just got a little too much. Cried my heart out on Numb from Linkin Park. The song just crashed on me.

Luckily L and I started talking about the Yaoi And Yuri (YAY)- Con tomorrow. I'm OK now and mostly excited for it. I need to get up in about 3 hours though.. Oops? I better don't oversleep. We're going as L and Light again because Cosplay is expensive and why the fuck wouldn't we? I decided not to bring my father's camera. No perfect quality pictures, but it's so heavy to carry around. I'll go to Lin's birthday party afterwards. I'll update about it all later!

Goodnight!

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mood: excited
eargasm: Medic Droid - Fer Sure
 
 
onkochishin
29 April 2009 @ 06:08 am
Ultimate Death Note Character Quiz(10+ results)

You are Light Yagami

Your heart redeems justice, you are willing to take the path of evil to destroy evil itself. You are also an ambitious and intelligent person, you are willing to sacrifice everything to reach your goal. Although that;s a dangerous mind you have, you are once a pure person, but due to the world conditions, you lost your pure heart. Little by little it darkens, until it becomes black.. Ideal Carreer: Judge,Cop, Detective, KIRA

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I am: my room
mood: okayokayness
eargasm: t.A.T.u. - Perfect Enemy